4:24 am. nope.
it just baffles me

just how different we become after a year. a few months even.
everything was so different a year ago. my beliefs, my interests, my friends, my feelings…. if we go back a year to this day, well, I was devastated. utterly heartbroken. I was so in love and my mind was in shambles.

i don’t really know how to empathize right now. I don’t know how to feel connected with other people very much. in a variety of ways, I don’t feel much.

i feel jaded. that’s likely the most fitting word for this. true excitement…. I don’t even know what that is anymore. I’m so used to faking enthusiasm nowadays that I don’t even remember how it feels to be excited.

I suppose my emotional investments in this past year have been poor. I got my hopes up a lot….. and got let down even more.

but I guess I should give myself credit for attempting to investing emotionally. but it just keeps getting more and more difficult. the lack of consistency of everything in my world right now is preventing me from having a good mental health. ugh.

I know I’m ok, but knowing and feeling… two entirely different things.

I haven’t given up entirely.

3:15. hopefully I can sleep now.

godotal:

omgbuglen:

How to use sand to freak people out

Imagine if some guy was tripping and saw the woman, runs up to help her and she just crumbles apart in his hands. That’s gonna take the trip south.

nic0tine-kisses:

I love this so much that it actually makes me feel a genuine sense of happiness

EZOO 6 ROLLCALL

who the fuck is going

because I AM

reblog if you’re attending!

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femifeisty:

DESTROY THE MYTH THAT TEENAGE GIRLS WHO IDENTIFY AS BISEXUAL ARE DOING IT FOR ATTENTION

(Source: spicedmead)

there’s nothing wrong with me, and I’m ok

there’s nothing wrong with me, and I’m ok
there’s nothing wrong with me, and I’m ok
there’s nothing wrong with me, and I’m ok
/there’s nothing wrong with me, and I’m ok/

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